A Perfect World ?

A Perfect World?

Wake up, it’s only me
Dreams will haunt you
Won’t let you be free
Don’t be afraid, don’t run away
I’ll never hurt you
I’ll always stay
Wake up, just let me in
You’ll never reach the end
Until you begin
Don’t be afraid, let yourself see
Don’t let the pain take you
Away from me

I could imagine
A perfect world with you
I could imagine …
Imagine …

Wake up, please greet the day
Life won’t hurt you
It’s what you display
Don’t be controlled, don’t hide within
I want to show you
Help you begin
Wake up, it’s time you feel
What I’m offering:
A way you can heal
Don’t turn away, don’t be naive
Life’s not what hurts you
It’s what you believe

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(Complacency is a slow suicide)
Above the clouds, high above the trees
The skies are so blue and the grass is so green
In reality, there’s nothing much to say
The world is so ugly, so cold and gray

I could wish all I want
It might come true
But it still won’t change
What has happened to you
I could dream all I wish
Confirm my fear
When my best dream
Is my worst nightmare
On these wings
I’d fly away with you
And leave behind
All the pain you’ve been through
I won’t let him take
This away from me
That sick and twisted little fiend
Won’t let you be free

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My Gemini

I’ll journey in the unknown
Try to find where I belong
Can’t wrap my head around this
So I’ll write it in a song
I’m not ready, yet, to say
The words you want to hear
And, though, at times
I know it’s true
Can’t fight this numbing fear

She came to me in a dream
And stayed ’til sleep was fleeting
I awaken to find I’m not alone
And my once-dead heart is beating
Your beauty is in my eye
My twin, my reflection, my love, my Gemini …

I want to say these words to you
But they’re locked inside my head
Can’t reason why I cannot say
Just hope my heart’s not dead

You came to me so quickly
Now, I’m begging you to stay
Feeling what I’ve never known
But lack the words to say
Been caught inside my skin for far too long
And now I pay
Will your patience compensate
And wait for what I have to say

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Once the thought leaves my lips
There’s no going back for me
The life that I once knew
Will recede into memory
And so I take this chance
And say these words to you
I hold my breath and wait to hear you say:
“I love you too”

Fear

I fear what I do not know
Lost control, gone inside
Pointing fingers scrutinize
I can’t hide

These strings make me who I am
I hear, I feel, greed controls
These chains tie me down on the ground
I hear, I feel no one knows

Pull my strings and you will see
Part of me in this place
I hide trapped inside my mind
I can’t hide

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Trepidation is my only friend
Iridescent eyes in the night
It lurks and watches over me
As greed’s grip closes tight
Ambiguity grips my mind
Its fear induced paralysis
A wall for me to hide behind
My emotional calluses

I fear what I think you’ll see
Lost in you, gone this place
Pointed at my thin-shelled head
Trapped inside

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I fear that my end is near
These thoughts live, I won’t give
It’s just a part that I dread
I can’t live

That’s Dream’s fear

Scratching the Surface

Scratch the surface, what’s below?
Waiting for someone to know
Searching for the words to say
Hoping it’ll end today

Scratch the surface, what’s behind?
Your darkened past; your troubled mind
Wading deep inside your pain
Stand now in the pouring rain

Screaming silence builds inside
Injured soul, damaged mind
Scratch the surface, try to fly
Clip your wings, just say goodbye

Scratch the surface, then you’ll know
Pain got planted, watch it grow
Scratch the surface, watch it bleed
Tell me what it is you need

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It’s over now, I don’t know how
How I wish
I could give your tears away?
If I was to take
All the knives; the glass, from you
(What breaks your skin?)
What I have to watch
Is my love get thrown away
Acting like a man
Being told I’ll never know
(I feel it too)
How I wish I could
But I don’t know what to say
When so far, so good
Is so far away from us
(Where have we gone?)
Watching you I cringe
As the pain cuts through your soul

Scratch the surface, try to heal
Finding light, now start to peel
Looking deep, still can’t see
The memory won’t let you be

Screaming silence builds inside
Injured soul, damaged mind
Scratch the surface, run so blind
Still can’t put the past behind
Need a way to end it all
Endless maze, then watch you fall
Senses sharp, yet still you’re dull
Sudden blast to his thoughtless skull

Just say goodbye …

Our Love Has Sailed

Where did we lose touch?
Our hands apart?
And how it happened, well no one knows
And no one chose to end us

We once were happy
A life so full
And now I see us, as only friends
And holding on to comfort

The truth is we’re through
Our love has sailed.
It’s time now to walk away

Just like a funeral
Sad thing it’s ours
It’s time to hold on to what we had
When things were good and carefree

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I know it’s hard to accept
(It’s part of life, time to face this)
That we can’t somehow pull through
You know we tried
And we can’t live blind
‘Cos if we don’t end us
We won’t remain as friends

How do I ask you to
Break our vows
Although it’s come up, it feels more real
The more I sing about it

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Awake From this Dream

Why can’t I be the man I see
When I look inside?
False corrections and misdirections
Instead I’ll stay and hide

My heart defies my head again
‘Cos here I’m left alone
I’ve sentenced myself to a life without love
Is there some kind of crime that I’ve done
That I must still atone?

I’m in the light, feeling your grip
Fighting myself, I’ll surely slip
Holding on tight, but what can I do?
Harder and faster and deeper in you

You are my shadow, please hear my call
I need to embrace you, make love to your all
My heart is there with you, my body enchained
Each day without you, I suffer in pain

I’m trapped inside, but far from blind
Dim light through closed eyes
Blackness surrounds, I struggle and drown
Can you hear my cries?

I tell myself it won’t be the same
I know it’s clearly a lie
The patterns of past keep repeating themselves
I must find a way
Just a rhyme and a reason to try

It’s crushing my hope, it’s filled with dread
And through it all, I’m playing dead
Racing my thoughts, I don’t feel I fit
She’s like a black-hole, I’m in her orbit

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But in my mind, I’m not as blind
And I see it all
I’m so confused, I’m feeling bemused
My reality falls

Screams within, I struggle to wake
Embraced dark-black abyss
My eyes are sown shut, mind-prison mistake
I wish I could feel her caress and
Stop missing her kiss

You think that greed is all you need
With your eyes always closed, you’ll never learn
You need to give and please let me live
I promise I’ll do what I’m asking of you

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This world at a glance; my life in a trance
Hear me scream: Awake from this dream

We Can Move On

As I sit inside of this room thinking
What I did to deserve this exile; this pain
All I want is to be alone, so I make sure that
What I do next is what I want

It’s so hard to keep my head up when
I was used to having a life that’s so far gone
I’m okay it’s just such a change and I
Have always had such a time with moving on

Seems that we always push ourselves down
Until we get what we’re doing is wrong
It’s then we see what’s been there all along
It’s only then we can move on

I’ll admit I really enjoy having
A place I can call my own, but that is all
I try to do whatever I can just to
Stop my mind from thinking how things are

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It seems so hard, but we got to push ourselves
And in the end we’ll regain what we’ve lost

Well the truth is some days are worse and I
Can’t stop myself from feeling I want to die
Try to catch this before it’s too strong
Then I must wait ‘til my mind resets
Oh, it takes so long

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Forever Makes Me Cry

The seasons of your soul are full and strong
It’s no use now, we fell apart …
Gone so far from my heart
We made the choice; it’s so bittersweet

I used to care, but then I woke
I give up now, you’ve won the war
I get up and close my door
My dreams were filled, now I’m left alone

Never say I love you if you don’t really care
Never talk of feelings if there isn’t any there
Never hold my hand if you plan to break my heart
Never say you’re going to if you don’t plan to start

Are you trying to bring my life down;
Trying to hold me back?
‘Cos it’s you that always breaks my heart

We used to be so close; then something changed
I can’t say what, but our final kiss …
All I know, it’s sometimes missed
The love is gone, so what’s there left to do?

Never look my eyes because all you do is lie
Never say hello if you really mean goodbye

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It’s strange the way things changed; still I know it’s right
What was love then? I love no more
I just want to find my core
The empty space is what hurts the most

If you mean forever then say that you’ll try
Never say forever, ‘cos forever makes me cry

Nothing’s the Same

You make me who you want me to be
I’ll be who I am
You tell me what to be
And it’s more than I can stand

Splinter in my head
Push and pulled in every way
Never is allowed to stay
Better off dead
Splinter in my brain
In your hands, I’m just like clay
What I am, depends your day
Nothing’s the same

Mold me to your needs and you’ll see
I’ll change back again
Cut me and you’ll bleed
But you’ll never understand

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I need to open my eyes to move on
Now I’ve see too much
But will I find my way
Or ever know your touch?

Repeat Chorus

Part of One

And though our point is clear
Still some live in fear
We’re only here to love
Only here to love

It’s time you look around
And see what’s all been found
‘Cos you’re a piece of me
And I’m a piece of you

You were taught one way
Never got to choose
It’s time you see what’s real and true
Look inside your heart to find the way

So, please don’t turn your head
No more living dead
You’re much more than you see
More than you and me

No more blinded faith
Don’t you think for you?
It’s time you see what’s here right now
Look inside your heart to find the way

You see we’re all a part of one
Something far beyond the sun
You and me and all our friends around the world
We’re all just a smaller part of one

A lesson learned through time
Coded in verse and rhyme
And what you thought you knew …
All just shadows on the wall
It’s something I can explain
Just look inside it’s there
All so close, yet so far
You’re all a part of it all

Now since you see it’s real
You’ll begin to heal
We’re only here to love
Only here to love

The story changed through time
Never told it all
It’s time you knew the truth was lost
Look inside your heart to find the way

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Bring it Back

Time, well it’s sure passed me by
What did I do to make this all go wrong?
Us I guess we’re lost again
What can I do to change this back to one?

’Cos you and I are ones who made the change
Brought back to the way that it should have been
But now it’s done there’s no time left to fix the pain
Bring it back the way that it should have been back before

Change, well it’s no one’s friend
It’s time to make exceptions and gain control

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I’ve told you many times before I’m gonna try
Never gonna slack a day before
It’s never gonna pass me by
I’ve told you many before I’m gonna try

We’ve seemed to lose the way
Back another day
It seemed to slip away
I need it here to stay
It’s all right here with you
It’s in the things you do
It’s all around you
It’s in your heart; it’s in your soul
(Bring it Back)
It’s all right here with you
It’s in the love you share
It’s what will save you
Come on bring it back

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Tomorrow

Beautiful girl transcends her skin
Her beautiful eyes that draw me in
Searching for love, but lost the way
Found myself again then it’s taken away

Someday, we’ll feel this way again
Never knowing where we’re going
Or where we’ve been
Tomorrow …

From down within, I see her visage
Pinch me, I’m dreaming; must be a mirage
Sudden realization that’s always been there
Quiet contemplation, free from my fear

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I don’t belong here; this view from the clouds
The sight of an angel, but I’m from the ground
Haven’t earned these wings yet, but all on my mind
Is the thought of us here with halos entwined

Beautiful girl transcends her skin
Her beautiful world, please let me within
Take me to where I know this could go
I’ll show you the life you’ve been searching to know

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What I Believe

Where I am it seems where I began
Left this cell now I’ve returned
Once released, I guess there was a catch
‘Cos I’m back behind these bars

I thought that I was free
It seems it cannot be

Lift my head, my face shown on the glass
What I see I can’t believe
Who I fear, his face shown in the mirror
Oh such pain; I’m the cause

It seems that he is me
My worst Fear holds the key

What does this mean?
This shatters all I’ve ever known
All my hopes and my fears
It seems I’m what I believe

Where from here, and who was in my dream?
She freed me once so long ago
What was Hope? I look again the mirror
Her sweet face has become my own

Who had once set me free
Another piece of me

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What I am is what I chose to be
No more sides it’s all within
It’s this key that frees me from myself
No more bars to hold me back

No more war in my heart
Now my life it can start

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It seems I’m what I believe (twice)

Where from Here?

So where do you go from here?
Do you turn yourself around?
Do you let it tear you down?
Where do you go from here?

This can be a heavy load
When life shows a divide
It’s what you have all been taught to see
Days like this will happen
But the ease it comes in time
Life reflects just what you believe

“Where from here?” I ask you now
‘Cos there’s nothing more to say
Search your heart, it will help you see
You do not have to struggle
Our words have shown the way
Take my hand you will not be alone

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If you please could tell me,
Do you think that you’re alive?
Aren’t you controlled by what you fear?
I do not want to hurt you
But I need you to search within
All that you know might be a lie

I’ve told you once; I’ll say again
You’re all a part of one
It’s up to you now
We’ve showed you Fear is part of Hope
It’s what you chose to see
What will you do?

How I want to leave this is …
It’s all within your reach
What you chose is your destiny
So please think twice I beg you
What you do affects us all
Life is not just what’s in our world

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Where do you go from here?